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midnight prayer



There’s no real place to begin. You are great. Thank you for reminding me of your unfailing love; love this isn’t determined by my performance, or even my attitude in approaching or obeying. I feel so inadequate, but I know that’s a lie. I am inadequate, but I’m also dead. You are the One alive in me; I have been crucified and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. You have blessed me with every spiritual blessing, including the strength to obey when I’m out of my league (because you are never out of Yours), and the Spirit to align my heart with yours. Holy Spirit, please do so. In my innermost being I long to worship Jesus in Spirit and Truth. Pierce through the division of soul and spirit, of joints and marrow; discern the thoughts and intentions of my heart. Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! See if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting! O God, how I need you. I need you for survival. I need you for satisfaction. I have tasted and seen, and now where else can I go? Thank you for never giving up on me, for never relenting in your pursuit of my heart. You have captured me, and your fetters of love will never let me go, no matter how hard I fight against and no matter how passive I become. You are the one who is holding me. It’s amazing. It’s my only hope. And, because of this, I will be singing of You forever. Forever.

I lay my prideful obsession with others’ approval at your feet. It’s all the same war, which you have already won, and yet I still try to pick up my wooden sword and flirt with the sin that only has my death intended. Help me to remember that amplification of myself is only resulting in death. Give me spiritual discipline and endurance to fight against this body of death and walk in newness of life, in step with Your Spirit.

I trust you have gone before me and I know you go with me.


Plagiarism: I didn’t write this, but you should still read it


In my previous post, I talked all about one of my favoritest people in the world. The following is something she wrote a few weeks ago on her blog, and I loved it so much I wanted to 1) share it with you, and 2) make it available in more than one place so I can always have access to it no matter what.

So without further ado….

you belong to me

Remember the moment/you know exactly where you’re going/’Cause the next moment/before you know it…You think twice about your life/Tie a noose around your mind loose enough to breathe fine and tie it, To a tree, tell it, “You belong to me/This ain’t a noose, this is a leash/And I have news for you/you must obey me.”

As I’m working through a few major changes in the way that I live, this concept has become vital: taking my mind captive. I have been made new and will continue to be made new in this life that I have in Christ, but there is a fight. There is a saying that we have in the girl’s house, “The struggle is pretty real”. Even though this is often said as a joke, it is true.  Placing my focus and investing my thoughts on the things that are profitable, (ie. Whatever is true, lovely, pure…) is not the natural state I tend to gravitate towards. I constantly have to reevaluate how I’m using my brain power and adjust accordingly.

Just like hours in the day there is only so much time that I have been given to think, to meditate.  Time management is often talked about, how important it is and how it is a skill that has to be developed.  The same is true of managing my mind.  There is always something that it would rather be doing, something easier for it to be entertained by, something self-gratifying instead of self-sacrificing.

There is much more to controlling my thoughts then just not thinking about certain things, though that is an aspect.  The time that I spend in prayer, considering others, meditating on scripture, and resting is equally important.  As is the case with most changes, only focusing on abstaining from a particular behavior will ultimately end is obsession. Focusing only on a physical behavior modification doesn’t address the heart issue and buries the real source.

2 Corinthians 10:3-6

For though we walk in the flesh, we are not waging war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ, being ready to punish every disobedience, when your obedience is complete.

It belongs to me, with God’s help I can manage what goes in, what I focuses in, and then what comes out.